It’s official.
My Hormones are eating my brains. I have crashed. Total system failure. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep, unless induced by alcohol.
I just want to hate everything and everyone for the situation I am in. I am aware of how irrational that that is.
Depression. Serious Depression is what I am in.
Can someone turn on a light or something? It’s pretty fucking dark in here.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
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Girl. Girl. Girl. I am so with you. I deal with depression on a daily basis. It sucks a big fatty doesnt it? And its even harder when you have a spouse that is gone 75% of the time. Will it help you to know that I am suffering too? : )
ReplyDeleteI dont want you to suffer. I am very drunk and I am sorry you are going through a hard time because I know I am barely coping..
ReplyDeleteI dont even know you but I love you because you understand. So few people understand. Thank you for understanding. Im sorry that you do though. no one should have to.
I also had horrible HORRIBLE depression, especially postpartum depression. Exhaustion didn't help. I used to drink a lot. That didn't help, either. I was put on Zoloft for a while. I was better but didn't want sex anymore.
ReplyDeleteThere is a light at the end of that long, dark, lonely tunnel. I'm glad you are writing about it. Do everything you can to help yourself: i.e. drink lots of water and get some sort of exercise, even if it's just dancing around the room with Lolo. I ate and ate and ate and am paying for it now. I wish I had made healthier choices.
Hormones, lack of sleep, and being alone sucks.
Being told that you are depressed when you didn't think you were depressed sucks. Here I thought I just hated everyone.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry sweetie. I too suffer from depression and know how deep it can get.
ReplyDeleteI pray you get through it and see the light on the other side.
Just thinking about you and hoping you're feeling better...
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